shit happens..it always does

Seriously, wad's wrong with me? I think i'm testing my own limits of the amt of shit i can take. As if i havent ald have enough work to do, i happily signed myself up into e canoe polo IFG only to receive an email last night saying tt there's one final trg cum team-bonding session tmr from 9-11am, and then its e qualifiers on saturday 9-1pm and finals on sunday 11-3pm.

Isnt it like another case of deja vu? Like, havent i ald gone thru tiz kinda shitified situation during sculling? How we went for a competition with only 5 trg sessions and making a fool of ourselves. This time round, it's just 2 trg sessions and there..u r off to fend for yourself in the qualifiers and the finals. Damit, i just have this feeling they r so gonna pass the ball to me and think i am capable of scoring goals, when i'm like, new to the sport. And i'm juz gonna b a let-down lah.

Why do i always let shit happen? I mean, it's gd tt i like to try out new sports, and i know its a great experience to b in a competition n all tt stuff, but i juz dont like it when i go unprepared. Physically n mentally unprepared. I mean, i knew this was gonna happen, but then, y did i let myself go thru this kinda thing again? Screwed up man. Seriously screwed up. Wait for my news..maybe sci fac will clinch like 3rd? and it'll b only because there's 3 facs participating or smth. How 'exciting'

Yanling sent out an sms to us juz now. I believe it was sent out to the whole clique. It read: "Saw a trauma case today. Attend to e 44 yr old chinese female from 830 till 1..resuscitated her 6 times, but have to let her go eventually.....do cherish life, we nv know when we will leave, and may not even get to say goodbye. Hope u guys take care n u guys r always in my heart.."

Wow..wad a powerful msg. Our dear nurse a.k.a missy frm e clique sending out a msg loud and clear tt life is precious. How could i have forgetten tt! I replied wif a msg to her which read, "Thank u. Sometimes we get so caught up with life tt we forget to cherish things that REALLY matter.Thanks for reminding us how precious life is. Take care ger"

I put myself into her shoes. What if i was the one doing the resiscitation?? If a life juz slipped past my fingers like tt[even aft resiscitating 6 times], I may not have remained as calm and composed as she was..to be able to send out the sms to all of us. Maybe tt's why i'm not in e medical line. Her calling is one tt's really noble, and i take my hats off her.