ups, n mostly downs

Before i start blogging proper, i wld on behalf on e clique like to apologize to guimei n kaiyan. Coz we wont be able to celebrate e labour day babies birthday on e actualy day itself, ie sunday. Guimei, not sure if u read my blog, but kaiyan, if u see tiz, yup, really sorry ah. All having exams. No actually, by 30th, jul, wen n i wld have finish our papers le. But guimei--ur 'wu yue yi hao' partner still got exams ah. And den e SIM pple also got exams. Anyway, i read ur blog, ky u say u still wanna be a teen rite? dun have to join wen's 2-0 club. Well, u can always stay in my 19 club!! Welcome welcome. 19 is a very nice number, hahahah. So long as we dun celebrate ur bdae, u r unofficially 19 mah. Maybe try to keep 4th May free hor, den we go celebrate with u. In e mean time, pls hint explicitly wad u want. If its within e budget n our means, we'd definitely get it for u all. =]

Having chalet on 20-22th May. Woohoo. A clique chilling out in chalet. So exciting. Let's booze man. N food!! Wen's speciality--mash potato wif cheese topping, here i come!! Early carbo load man. Opps.

Do not, i repeat, do NOT ask me how i got BBQ-ed to perfection for my paper today. Oh well, u can ask lah. No time to finish, some dunnoe how to do, tt's about it. But somehow I juz felt tiz sense of inner peace at e end of the paper when e invigilator said 'pens down' --oh yah, pls pronounce pens down properly. If not it sounds like pants down, which can be quite indecent. *lame moment* Anyway, back to wad i was saying..It's like, 'ok i leave it all in God's hands. Urs, not my will be done.' --inner peace.

I went for an evening swim aft coming home. I juz wanted to go de-stress n i've decided not to run for at least 3 weeks to see if it'll help in recuperating e shin splint. Swimming's gd. e doc said swimming does not impact e leg e way running would. Woah, i really miss swimming man, such a long time since i touched chlorine water. E darndest things i think of when swimming. 'Stroke by stroke, 1-2-3 n 4..1-2-3 n 4' the whole time i was swimming. My gosh, i'm gg crazy. Previously when i was swimming, it'll usually be some songs tt plays in my head, n now?

U noe, there's smth gd on tv! At least i think its gd. hahah. Well my expectations arent tt high coz i dun have SCV unlike some pple. If not, i'd probably watch HK drama serials n those Taiwan OuXiang Ju all day. E 9pm show on channel 8 is quite gd u noe? E one which stars Thomas Ong n Fann Wong. E last time they acted tgt was in tt show, zai jian ying guang lan. Tt was really like one of the most talk tv show last time lah! E next day in sch, we'd talk bout wad happened n all, n how Thomas Ong was so shuai. hahaha. Right now i think he's no longer charming as i perceived him to b when i was 10 yrs old. Why must it be tt we tell pple, 'i am 19 yrs OLD?' why cant i say, 'i am 19 yrs YOUNG?' Something to really think about.

To end of, here's a short note to all who r feeling depressed.. utterly n totally stressed. I am also feeling as shitified as u all are, really. Just tt i cant explain y i'm still so lame right now u'd probably think i'm ok. Funny isnt it? E days i'm lame, i'm considered normal. E days i keep very silent coz its not my day, tt's when i'm not tt normal n something's really wrong. U dun know how screwed i am till u see my CAP, which so happens to be white in colour and it's Nike, by the way. -_-" Ok, the pt is, i feel like diz pressurised cooker education institution is making us graduate into very unhappy adults indeed. I cant seem to find happiness in any particular spot in NUS. Talked to yirang while i was doing my cheat sheet[legal!] n was commenting to her tt at e rate we r gg, our society which we ourselves have created/ruined, is gonna be 1 tt's giving lotsa unnecessary stress on each n everyone of us. And tt expectations r rising so far beyond reach tt diz society is gonna evolve into 1 tt's made up of very unhappy adults--US. Makes me wonder, Cindy 1st yr in NUS--lame n crappy. Cindy 3rd yr in NUS--no longer lame n crappy. A very unhappy individual..in e making. In our GEK module, we discuss about goodness-of-fit. It means tt there is agreement and harmony--a 'fit'--between the person n the environment. I guess e misfit is gradually increasing.

By the way, u r not alone, seriously u arent. i guess it is through sadness tt we will know wad's e taste of happiness when we experience it. Quote for today, April 27th--Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. Thank u Denise, for tt a-quote-a-day calendar coz i asked for it last yr. Heh