sigh

actually i dunnoe wad to blog about also. I mean, life is so full of ups n downs, but mainly downs. And i'm so tired of telling e whole world how i get defeated time n time again. So might as well skip n delete n not write bout e unhappy stuff.

Anyway, i must say 'thank you' to iso for e slip of paper u gave me at YIH which read, "Hey Cindy! Cheer Up! Don't so stressted! *muakz* love, iso" when i lay my head down to rest aft staring at e tutorial for ages n flipping thru my textbk and lecture notes n still not be able to work smth out. Jerked up from e sleep, den found tt slip of paper in front of me. Sweet.

I realised tt many people actually care for me. And their genuine concern is truly smth tt makes me feel so, hmm..thankful for. I'm really not gd with words, but yah sometimes their actions n words juz make me feel tt hey, i'm not suffering alone. And the thing is tt, i never even asked for it. It came just like tt. Like for instance wendy who asked me how's my rash/itch n recommended her type of medicine shd it be a case of sensitive skin. And yirang, upon realising tt i'm not crapping ard today when i came for trg and juz asked, 'R u ok? U need a hug?' but stood at e higher step[outside e squash court] and expected me to be able to hug her? And i told her to take a step down to come to my level lah..tall pple..urgh. And there's Amy who casually asked me, 'How's my Cindy doing?' Aw man. Tt's really more than i can ask for. I cant possibly list everyone down, but yea, if u're not mentioned, it's not tt i dun remember. Or tt it was insignificant. Just tt, i'm not in e best of moods to list everything down.

Gym today was circuits..9 stations. I partnered Jade n we were at e sit-ups stn. I realised i need to warm up my engine. Once its started, i'm ok. And i'm not tt upset anymore. 3 pple did not run today--wendy me n pinxiu. sometimes i think i say stuff tt's actually shd also be directed at myself. ni shi shuo gei bie ren ting, hai shi shuo gei zhi zi ting? Like i say to wendy, 'take care of ur knee ah' without realising, hey, i muz take care of my own injury as well. No use asking others to take care n u urself dun take care. The rest soon returned from their 3.2km run. Heard pple calling for me to render first aid. Realised it was our dear welfare, wenya, who had grazed her knee n elbow. Fell down coz nv see diz pothole and slide. Ok same thing i need to say, it's not tt i'm rough. I'm a gentle first aider. If it hurts, it's because its e alcoholic swabs. I wished it didnt hurt too. I've experienced e stinging pain b4 n it aint a nice feeling. Anyway, i'm quite sure u r feeling ok ald. Small injury rite? Pick yourself up n be a stronger person aft tt. zhi zi die dao zhi zi ba.[edited n correct version. thank u wenya!zi ji die dao zi ji pa] =]

Quote of the day for March 22: I am responsible to God for the talent he has given me.