gdbye sci-ence katsu n hello arts katsu

i reached the arts deans office today at 845am though the interview was scheduled at 9am. Better to be early den late. well apparently there was still someone b4 me n this person took freaking long lah!! Firstly i sat on the couch and lay my hands on  The Straits Times main section which was on the newspaper rack, and den i finished reading the Home section, and den as if i havent already waited long enough[it was ald 930am!!] i managed to read the 'mind ur body' section. Den Life section, and finally i took the Arts n Social Science book and looked through it again so as to make sure i got my facts well.

Sharena, Prof Straughan personal secretary, came over to ask me if i could wait coz she knew i have ald been there for an hour. I said i couldnt wait coz i had smth on ltr, rather urgent in fact, but..i can probably wait a while more. I didnt wanna make a big fuss though i had ald wanted to show a super black face. Then again, i noe i cant crush my last hope. Patience, ren, endure.

I finally managed to step into prof straughan office at 950am. Thankfully i was told to leave my stuff outside, if not i wld have looked extremely awkward with so many stuff tt i had to carry. The setting was like some kinda formal interview, 2 interviewers[prof straughan n another lady], a long table in btwn us, den a comfy single seat sofa for me to sit.

I made a blunder at e beginning, walau huge error lah! was trying to tell them tt i've taken 2 arts modules n i enjoyed doing it. 1 of them being tiz GEK1012 module, which is a social work module. Slip of e tongue, not due to nervousness but i think wasnt thinking right. I blurted out, sociology coz she was asking wad department is it tt offered diz module. Den she asked, 'how come i dun recall a sociology module like tt?' and i realised my big mistake. Quickly corrected myself, 'social work, not sociology.' I think my mistake kinda eased e atmosphere quite a bit. Made them laughed, n i laughed at myself also. When i told her i felt very stifled in science n was kinda like a person who wanna express myself yet i'm trapped in e faculty and i'm not happy there, she said, 'shh diz is btwn u n me. I feel e same way about science fac too. dun let prof victor tan[vice dean of science] know' I cldnt help but laugh again.

Once again, my tan is like the hot topic lah. Everyone juz starts asking e reason behind it and yup, i told her it was coz i'm in dragonboat. Actually she ald knows tt from my transfer application form. Asked if it cld be e cause of my not so outstanding grades n i said 'no'. justified it with e fact tt its really maths module tt i screwed up in. Yah, maths major getting e lowest grade for maths modules outta all e modules tt i take. Dun wanna bore u out with the qns she asked but in e end, it was kinda like some American Idol audition. Prof Straughan said, 'i'd say a Yes for her transfer' and the lady beside her also said, 'yah, i dont see y not' Yunshan ever did tell me tt she's quite motherly, she sure is. She told me she'd monitor my progress n adviced me on some other stuff. Really nice.

I didnt wanna break e news to anyone in e team coz i wanted it to be a surprise, at least for a while. Or maybe i had some mischief up my sleeves. Blame it on the 2 spots on my head. hahaha. anyway i went down to the boat n kept very quiet. Wenting n jul sensed tt the outcome of the interview may not be in my favour given the impression i gave them based on my quietness. I told meiping i'd only know e outcome in a few days' time when i ald knew on e spot. =] Aft trg ended, i walked to wendy and asked, 'do u believe tt we r really twins?' She replied, 'yes' and i said, 'yah, ok u'd see in me arts next sem.' same fate lah!! That's when she found out tt i tricked them. hehe.

Our last trg ended, thankfully without 10-10-10. *phew* yirang, u n ur prediction which didnt come true, heng ah. I believe e worst part of tt prediction was when u said, 'soon it'll be 10-10-10-10. N very soon, u'd have to do 1 set of 10 all by yourself' I struggled with 2 on my own coz someone, i forgot who but it was definitely someone at 2nd PUB, who said, 'let her do 2 on her own, she can one.' i've nv even tried it b4 but i juz struggled to get my head to be above the bar. Somehow i managed to do it, how? I'm not sure how though. I did my last 8th pull up but meiping counted '6..still got 2 more' on purpose. bully, hrmpf.

Debrief ah, hmm, i read yirang's blog. Yup i contained n controlled my emotions. I managed. Just clenched my fist when i had e urge to, let it go. Well its a gd n bad thing lah. Gd to control my emotions at times but bad in a way to juz keep it inside. Wah e day i release, its gonna be really wet. No, i just dont want it to happen again. They say its only ur true friends who have seen u cry. Well den i guess the whole team qualify, considering how i juz felt so damn upset aft tt particular race set last regatta n cried. It was just so overwhelming, 4 n a 1/2 pairs rowing, not very together, n a disappointing finish. It was e worst feeling one cld ever experience. Cldnt turn off the water tap despite trying to do so. That was my very first race experience. I believe i got quite a few pple worried tt time though. Anyway, Wenya was sitting beside me during debrief, den i juz sensed smth wasnt right. Sniffing, den when i glanced right to check, i saw tears running down her cheeks. Gave her a reassuring pat on e back and asked if she was alright. Sometimes it hurts to see my friends cry, or to be upset. It really does.

Settler's was fun, we played a new game. I forgot the name of tt game but i know we played 2 rounds, 1st round wendy n meiping were the traitors; 2nd round geoks n i were the traitors. Moral of the game: the bad guy wins!! So the traitors won n severed all existing friendship ties with the other players/team mates.

We went to celebrate lipin's birthday at marina, centrestage. Quite fun but aft everything, i was really exhausted. started being quiet at 10+. Its very easy to sense when i'm not my usual self. it is when i'm quiet, and i stop talking/laming. but dun misken; sometimes i keep quiet because deep down inside, i truly value the importance of silence and i dun see the need to talk. If u really noe me well enough, u'd realise tt i'm actually quite quiet at times, but its not tt i'm not in my element. Just tt i'm comfortable with keeping quiet, juz as i'm equally comfortable with spending time alone.

I'd like to end this post by saying a big thank u to God, n to my concerned friends n team mates who'd been asking me bout the outcome of the transfer. I dunnoe if i can do well in arts, but i'm certain tt i'll be happier there. Goodbye geoks n vic, hello..*deep breath* wendy, yunshan, serene, mona, angeline, yirang, jul, wenya n wenting. I promise i wont wreck too much havoc in arts. Well, i'm not tt powerful lah. Anyway i'm gonna slog hard, really hard. If it means camping out in yih, i shall.