is winning everything?

My toothy grin has made way to a frown. wenya n yirang calls it the constipated look on my face.[constipated face on my look, whichever] Even i didnt notice it till they pointed it out to me on thurs.--Dang1 ju2 ze3 mi2, pang2 guan1 ze3 qing1.-- It is the by stander that knows better because she can observe whats happening to the person who's gg thru it. Then again, how can i ever notice it when i dont carry a mirror with me and i cant see my facial expression unless i look into one.

Detailed blog posts has made way for sketchy posts, perhaps soon there'll be none.

If u asked me whether i'm stressed, i'd answer, 'not exactly.' I'm more of overwhelmed with stuffs tt r presented to me and discussed during the meeting itself.

It's intersting how they say to me now, 'Cindy, its ok to whine to us u noe?' and then yirang carries on with this really gd impersonation of me n my 'i dun wannnnna...'[which i'd always do last time] when in the past, it'll be, 'Cindy, stop whining!U r behaving like a 6 yr old kid'

The qn tt i once thought about n asked wenting, jul, wenya has surfaced again. Wld it rather be a gd set yet we dun win; or a messy set yet we win. Be clear that the definition of winning is ntg short of a 1st.

Right now, my stand is still the same as b4 race itself. Is it really a finger pointing, fault blaming game tt surfaces when a team doesnt win eventually, even if it was a gd set? I dont think so. I dont FEEL so. No one, and nothing can take away tt feeling which i felt aft e race. It is etched clearly in my mind and in my heart.

I want to smile again