sunkissed

i'm burnt and very shagged. Really sunkissed ytd[pun intended] Like, really red and all. My face seemed like i've applied an overdose of blusher, my neck is red n painful.

the sun was a killer i tell u. it really saps away every bit of energy n left us all extremely drained, n may i add, quiet. 20 gals hopped onto the canadian boat leaving angeline, me, cheez n bc on the sdba small boat. got towed back but didnt juz slack. instead we did our very own 3-women time trial, with 1 coxwain at the back to lift up rudder. every time the rope got taut as it was being towed, both boats wld jerk. it was a pretty jerky set back, i muz say. Tested alot on endurance as well.

stupid things tt can came out of pple's mouth, aka blooper moments

hold 1-2 metres away frm blade.
lai, pull back to the back.

Like seriously..

ok sunny's really licking everywhere, n he juz managed to kiss me when he got too close to my face. Argh!! He's a hum sup dog ;[ I shant elaborate further.

lunched at liang seah st aft trg ytd. was quite worth it. 4 dishes n each paid $6.60. Damn, shd have chosen to sit at the other table e next time. Sat at the table with pple who r big eaters. so hungry tt we were more than willing to play the Number Game n kena the forfeit.heh. The other table actually had leftovers n passed to our table 0_0 [too bad it wasn't no. 45..] We den proceeded to Ah Chew dessert place, n i ate 炖旦

u really have to stay away frm me when i'm very drained/ or very shagged. can be either extremely lame, or plain bad tempered. recently the trend is tt i'd be very crappy when i'm shagged. poor pple who ate at Ah Chew dessert n had to endure my crappiness.

things not gg too well at home. mum's went away to taiwan for a getaway with her friends. coming back on the 28th. when mum's away, it juz means i'm the next most convenient person to arrow. Why? Just coz its a bloody stereotype. I'm female. juz coz i'm a girl doesnt mean i have to be thrown all e housework, which includes washing their underwear[eeeew], and sweeping/mopping the floor. Anw, i'm a girl but its not tt ez to arrow me. Heh, i'm quite a terror at home actually. No1 dares to touch me coz i really ROAR at home.

As for sunny, u can say i think too much. I wont deny it. I really do. I'm juz thinking tt my brother ald messes up the house quite abit, and now with sunny, the house's in an even bigger mess. i can b stepping on pee when i walk into my room aft a tiring day, or be woken up at 5am each morning coz he whines every morning at 5. it can be emotionally n mentally draining. i told twin, 'i dunnoe if my love for sunny is out of obligation, or do i truly love him?' she replied, 'cindy u really think too much!' Yes of course there r the shining moments, like when he really runs to me when i call his name, or when i play catch n he's really active, or when he juz licks me[at the not so weird places] as a sign of affection. it's like, aww man. sweet.

But i juz dun feel comfortable, or happy for tt matter, tt my bro n mum didnt consider deeper aspects of owning a dog. Spontaneity is gd sometimes, risk-taking is too; i'm not saying we shd stick with convention, n to have to always keep thinking bout everything b4 making decisions. I guess, perhaps i juz think too much for everyone else. Character trait can also be a character flaw.

Perhaps i'm juz tired.

I'm rather thankful for the twist of fate, or events, that has somehow got me closer to some pple. Like u noe how u previously nv really talked much to a person, or confided in a person b4, but somehow by a spark[yah, it only takes a spark to get the fire gg..] u somehow can juz connect all of a sudden? I'm thankful for such pple in my life. I'm slowly learning to open up n not bottle everything inside me. thanks, whoever u may be. You may not even know it but yah, it means alot to me.