challenging routine
i thought today's mass will be as usual. usual in e sense that there's ntg special, e same 'o routine. routine wld include:
-me dozing off sometimes. not because the sermon is boring, but most of the time, to go for e 830am mass, my body's just not warmed up yet.
-me asking myself wad am i doing here. if God is omnipresent, y do i still go to church each week? is it just simple faith i have? Blind faith maybe? Well, isn't faith believing wad u cannot see?
-me wondering y most families hug each other when it's 'peace be with u', but for my family, we shake hands. the last time my dad kissed my head, or when my brother hugged me, i found it awkward. maybe its juz tt my family isnt gd with expressing ourselves. effects of socialisation..maybe tts y i turned out like tt? i'd nv say e 3 words.
just when i thought everythin wld be "routine", n i'd leave church for trg, we had this song played for recession hymn.
There is none like You
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You
one of those 'wow' moments. i've nv felt this 'wow' for a very long time ald. it wasn't just my heart that was touched. yah n den for a brief moment i pretended i had a mild flu.
went to sdba aft church..as a result i reached damn early. manda came early too so we walked to sdba tgt. its v nice to crap with her. sometimes we have e same crap frequency, which leaves e both of us laughing like mad.
e waters in sbda was damn choppy today coz of all e waterfest n also e subaru challenge. i capsized once coz i was on e bloody unstable T kayak n den i got hit by a wave. the great thing abt capsizing was that i regained my confidence in canoeing! 因祸得福 aka blessing in disguise. it's like, wads worse than capsizing?
well maybe its a combination of 2 factors. 1--calmer/closed waters [not open sea], n 2--regaining confidence, dat was able to control e kayak better while clocking mileage. as i dutifully went to n fro, doing laps, was just thinking abt the difference of 2 sports. canoeing n dragonboating. maybe pple who join db nds company. pple who join canoeing r probably comfortable with being alone, have greater sense of security? apart frm the 'jiayous' tt i said to everyone who past me, there was no other conversation/interaction for the 2hrs. not tt we talk alot on e boat, in fact during trg, its only during the v short breaks tt we talk, n when we do its e formal feedback kinda thing, but if lucky, we can still manage to squeeze in a lame joke or smtg.
on e objective side, there's really a sense of independence tt naturally comes with canoeing. u cannot rely on anyone but urself shd u want the boat to move faster. in db, some may opt to b free riders. i'm no angel, was guilty of tt in my yr1. i wouldnt say i can completely grapse e whole 'feeling the water' idea, but definitely, i feel the resistance. its very real. And if anyone wanna know wads in my head as i'm rowing, tis is it. It was just on 'repeat' mode, playing in my head. i'm not a gd catholic, i dun even spread His words, my actions aren't even exemplary. Why did He choose to have such strong presence in me today?
Lord I give You my heart
Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me
I challenged routine today..how amazing.
-me dozing off sometimes. not because the sermon is boring, but most of the time, to go for e 830am mass, my body's just not warmed up yet.
-me asking myself wad am i doing here. if God is omnipresent, y do i still go to church each week? is it just simple faith i have? Blind faith maybe? Well, isn't faith believing wad u cannot see?
-me wondering y most families hug each other when it's 'peace be with u', but for my family, we shake hands. the last time my dad kissed my head, or when my brother hugged me, i found it awkward. maybe its juz tt my family isnt gd with expressing ourselves. effects of socialisation..maybe tts y i turned out like tt? i'd nv say e 3 words.
just when i thought everythin wld be "routine", n i'd leave church for trg, we had this song played for recession hymn.
There is none like You
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You
one of those 'wow' moments. i've nv felt this 'wow' for a very long time ald. it wasn't just my heart that was touched. yah n den for a brief moment i pretended i had a mild flu.
went to sdba aft church..as a result i reached damn early. manda came early too so we walked to sdba tgt. its v nice to crap with her. sometimes we have e same crap frequency, which leaves e both of us laughing like mad.
e waters in sbda was damn choppy today coz of all e waterfest n also e subaru challenge. i capsized once coz i was on e bloody unstable T kayak n den i got hit by a wave. the great thing abt capsizing was that i regained my confidence in canoeing! 因祸得福 aka blessing in disguise. it's like, wads worse than capsizing?
well maybe its a combination of 2 factors. 1--calmer/closed waters [not open sea], n 2--regaining confidence, dat was able to control e kayak better while clocking mileage. as i dutifully went to n fro, doing laps, was just thinking abt the difference of 2 sports. canoeing n dragonboating. maybe pple who join db nds company. pple who join canoeing r probably comfortable with being alone, have greater sense of security? apart frm the 'jiayous' tt i said to everyone who past me, there was no other conversation/interaction for the 2hrs. not tt we talk alot on e boat, in fact during trg, its only during the v short breaks tt we talk, n when we do its e formal feedback kinda thing, but if lucky, we can still manage to squeeze in a lame joke or smtg.
on e objective side, there's really a sense of independence tt naturally comes with canoeing. u cannot rely on anyone but urself shd u want the boat to move faster. in db, some may opt to b free riders. i'm no angel, was guilty of tt in my yr1. i wouldnt say i can completely grapse e whole 'feeling the water' idea, but definitely, i feel the resistance. its very real. And if anyone wanna know wads in my head as i'm rowing, tis is it. It was just on 'repeat' mode, playing in my head. i'm not a gd catholic, i dun even spread His words, my actions aren't even exemplary. Why did He choose to have such strong presence in me today?
Lord I give You my heart
Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me
I challenged routine today..how amazing.
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