e reluctant bdae girl (I)

n so, the highly overrated hype of the so called, 'big day', is finally over. o-v-e-r

i think there has nv been so reluctant a person who celebrated her 21st bdae. well if there is, u saw her ytd.

i seriously dunnoe y i decided to celebrate my 21st bdae leh. no its not for the present[i am not so hard up], its definitely not for the money [i didnt invite any of my relatives..] whyyyy? 为什么我连一点快乐/兴奋的预感都没有，凡而是感到厌卷?

was v shagged when i hit the bed ytd. KO-ed almost immediately, didnt manage to enteratain the 'why' qn. ie why did i even decide to celebrate aft all? i vaguely remember me thinkg, 'very special pple in my life' n den i KO-ed.

yah u who r invited..u mean alot to me. 3 different cliques in my 21 yrs. Crescent clique, my JC 02s19 friends, n now, dragonboat gals. it wasnt meant to b a 'bdae parteee', more like a bdae celebration. anw sorry if i didnt have time to entertain or talk to u ytd. coz its juz so many pple. in bc's words, it's like 'entertaining so many pple, it feels like u r getting married'. for e record, no1 got drunk. hmm..apart frm, jo. heh

kept booze to its minimal aft numerous lessons learnt. vic asked, 'u wan a birthday kiss?' n i'm like，'rite..no thank u' -_-^

since this is my blog, i'm entitled to make my thank u, aka long-winded overrun, unedited speech here. (this has been the actual thing i wanted to say but i cut it really short ytd.) once again, i held back. i dun wanna b seen crying in front of soo many pple, n also, i think i'd probably scare the hell of my parents if i cried. sorry phy, it's hard man. i'm trying to let go ok?

thanks mum n dad, more to mum for bearing me. bearing me for 10 mths, n now continu-ing to bear with me. it meant alot to me tt u took leave ytd n forgo ur $75, which i will return to u in due time. give me 1 mth, i'd come up with e money. i noe u've ur own probs at work, so tts y i dun bore u with mine n i keep stuff to myself.

i havent exactly been the best daughter, i'm out most of the time. but when i'm out, u can trust tt i'm in gd company. i've devoted almost all my time on either dragonboat, or studies. it's hard for me to be home n u dun see me v often, but rest assured tt i'm doing all i can to be a better WOman. When i'm home, i usually am not in e best of moods. But i jus wanna say i really love u. i wont ever say it in ur faces, but i cherish e both of u. I don't have a bf (but neither do i have a gf) so u can b at ease tt ur daughter is single for now, n for life maybe? as for my brother, thx for irritating me for 21 yrs. making me have inferiority complex by always saying i'm stupid when i lose to u in checkers, but when i play with pple outside, i'm pro. with siblings its a natural tendency to share stuff, so u dun become selfish. so thx bro, for teaching me to share. but.. u still get on my nerves sometimes. haha

crescent clique: it's been like 8 yrs since we've known each other. u must have seen a drastic change in me since sec sch. be it in the hairstyle [wtf, who went to go take pics of my family photo, better own up!], e size[so fat last time], or in character. the cindy in e past was an extrovert, someone who terrorised pple with the '19 august!' the immature one who was always up to mischief. tt was a time when i still enjoyed being in e centre of attn; when i kicked a big fuss on how u had to celebrate my birthday, if not i'd be v upset. thx for seeing me thru those times, n for tolerating all tt. i'm a different person now. its not a bad thing to b introverted, it juz means i'm comfortable being with just a few close friends. n u needn't worry bout me, the youngest in e clique. probably e youngest but also e finest? wahahah kidding. i still retain my sense of humour n positive outlook towards life, n stuff. here's a toast to our friendship

jc clique: havent really known u tt well, but nonetheless nice to see u all. the pple who made e 2 yrs in jjc more bearable, though u all juz took e thrill of always letting me b the 'butt' of ur jokes, literally. i noe i have a big butt ok? arghh. i really love e part where we always complain bout mrs ong. no, i'm not as smart as u always thought i was, though i'm e one who made in into nus. but seriously, it really doesnt mean a thing one, n its really not as prestigious as it seems.

dragonboat gals: w/o u all, i'm condemed to b an extreme no-lifer in nus. wld probably have commmited suicide coz there's really ntg gd to look forward for in nus. e snrs whom i have rowed with have taught me many great lessons, which for now, its in e hands of mine, n e rest to pass on. thanks for e ride, different rides in fact. so far i've taken 2 rides, n i'm ald on e 3rd one. probably a few pple i'd like to thank personally, e othrs, pls there's no nd to b jealous. bc for e baileys, rang for helping to coordinate, raine thx for the cheng teng, phy (radio) n rendy for helpg to coordinate n askg e jnrs, zy for looking aft sunny, n twin for e cds. its a tough sport, at times i dunnoe if its love for sport or love for e gals tt keeps me gg. perhaps i will nv know..but anyhow, u all mean alot to me. e reason y i fight so much less losing battles with my mind these days, is because e pple n e sport, has taught me a big lesson on 'mind over body'.

thankfully there's sunny to steal the limelight. think he's so happy basking in all the attention. he loves being in company, surrounded by so many pretty gals! no wonder he took advantage n kissed them. naughty sunny..sorry if he was up to mischief n scared u. i told u b4, he's a v hum sup dog.

shall I post 21 pics?