u noe ah..

i juz came back frm pubbing session with twin, mp cheez n vic. its v comical e way vic commented, 'omg cindy i cant believe u r yr3 ald!? in my eyes u r always a yr1' arghh like seriously i dunno whether to laugh or cry.

actually the strangest thing is tt i too cannot belive vic is now in yr4. hah in my eyes she's always e yr2. of the many places to choose for dinner, twin picked marina square. we ate qiu lian ban mian for dinner. nostalgia nostalgia~

in their eyes, i'd always be tt ginna. but now in e eyes of the team, i'm a 老人. time really flies man..

actually i feel tt they really really care. they ask bout how's e team now, n i juz had one word to say, 'BIG'. i went on to say, 'u noe ah last time in ur yr1 sem2, u all went for june race with only 16 pple in e team? now there's 16 juniors..'

n there were other 'u noe' moments. like how i was telling them, 'u noe ah like last time, we cld do 45 60 60 in gym, 3 person per grp, n aft when we finished 5 stns, mona cld still make us go for a run? Now its 5 person per grp, 30 30 45, n by e time we finished 3 stns, its abt time for cool down.'

i feel like a parent. eg 'girl ah..u noe ah last time 1 bowl of noodles cost 20cents?'

i'm not in any way saying tt big is not gd. how wld i even b in e position to comment? for tiz is something tts probably a breakthrough in e history of e ladies db team. how wld u even noe if u havent tried? i do admit i'd prefer a smaller team, but its not fair to comment since i've nv tried big. This big. perhaps all we nd is just time to readjust, a lil more faith, a lil more trust. all these take time n we cant rush into it.

i'm tired frm all the workload tts piling up. its beyond the physical drain i'm experiencing. keep drooling in my sleep, for me this is no doubt a sign of my extreme tiredness. friday's r days i really look forward to as i get to chill out. fri is also 'twin day'

honestly, i'm annoyed with the attitude of certain pple, a minority for tt matter. i'm taking sc2216-emotions n social life, but a large part of my emotions, im still learning to control. once i get v pissed off, i'm so gonna lash it out hard. very hard. if i dun give u face, it's because u dont deserve it. i'd like to give pple chances, leeway, somewhat like an opportunity for u to redeem urself. also, its my way of stepping back to rationalise, to prove myself wrong abt u.

some things just matter alot to me. discipline being 1 of them. to me, its somewhat of utmost high importance. i wont be sorry if i hurt u. even if it means u learn it the hard way.

had tequila sunrise n margarita @intro bar. quite a nice place to chill, of course the company mattered.

i no longer wanna miss u all anymore..
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coz i realised u have ald become a special part of me. very much alive.

Cherish the Moment