Do something..do anything

just read rang's blog. it was one of those nice gd 'ol conversations ytd nite. she asked me to go walk walk at e pasar malam near her place. it's v strange tt during our term of captaincy, we nv had such talks. it was always things to settle, n the tone was serious.

right now its back to e really in depth talks. she talk, i listen. i talk, she listen. den i'd always say she seems to b able to verbalise my thoughts.

yah n seriously, rang i think u can lor. for me..nahh. 3 tries n i'm OUT. i'm resolved to holding a 37", ntg longer. somehow i dunnoe if its juz psychological, as in a phobia, or wad. but some things like multi-tasking, how can u train? tt comes under uncontrollables, i guess.

So for the rest, laugh n tease all u want, me being the capt who made history by not being able to cox properly, etc. i dun give a shit ok?

actually aft the chat, i realised tt even though there r many things tt fall under uncontrollables, yet at the same time, there r a hell lot of stuff tt fall under controllables. it's just tt, 拿捏要恰到好处 . tt to me (us), is the tricky part.

talked to phy on e way back from trg today. tt was aft the tau huay session wif zw, manda, angeline, jul, phy n myself. i accompanied her to go JP to settle her stuff, den i went to order my cake. its really kinda stupid coz i had to specify wad i want to b written on e cake. So i wrote, 'Happy 21st birthday Cindy'. How stupid is tt? -_-^

the auntie who was at the counter said

妹妹， 请问你要什么蛋糕？(in my heart, i was like argh..mei mei!?)

Then aft i specified wad i wanted, she gave me the order form to fill in, eg wad do i want to write on e cake. Den she said:

你今年21 岁？我还以为你是中二， 或中一。 你都不像是快要21 岁的人。

i'm not lying ok? i got a witness so u can verify with her. It's pretty disturbing actually. i mean yes, its quite a gd thing tt i pple say i look young (do i have a 长不大 face?), but den again if i look like a sec 1 or 2, tt's erm..太 over 了啦! Like there was this once a taxi driver said i looked like pri 6? hello..a pri 6 wont look so hmm..developed? wahahha

sch's starting tmr. hmm..ntg much to say. prayed abt it, for strength n courage to continue to do God's will. It's all in His plan, so i'd just hope He takes me by the hand n continue to lead me to where He wills.

trg today, probably a balancing act. focused too much on balancing tt it hindered in twisting. even i'm guilty of it. u noe like how the more u hold on to smth, the more u lose control of it? Balancing is one of them. Just like in e case of free will. The more we hold on to it, wanting to dictate our will, the more we become lost n eventually lose control over it. The best way is still to trust in the Lord.

perhaps one of the lesson i learnt today is this. In dragonboat-ing, it's 'do something'. In canoeing, it's 'do anything'

Thus not my will, but Yours be done.