withdrawal symptoms

Somehow i dunnoe why but i juz felt like i'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Went out with ky, jul n wenya today n was telling them i feel like closing down my blog. Not tt i've lost interest lah, its juz tt, i do keep a personal diary n it's like, in my blog, i only reveal 30-40% of my true thoughts and feelings; while for my diary, i reveal like 70-80% of what i really feel. Definitely cannot pen down a full 100% coz of space constraint and its damn tiring to just keep writing. Besides, the feeling tt one experiences at a particular event will be lost slowly, right after the event ends. As much as u want to find back tt feeling and capture it in words, it is difficult to do so. And thats when pictures serves the purpose, since as all of u already know, a picture paints a thousand words.

Its really up to u to believe me what i'm gonna say next--wenya n jul are c gin na's in disguise. They showed their true colours when we went out today lah! N its even worse than my level of c gin na-ness. All tt sudden breaking into laughter which i'd respond by shooting a really weird look at them.

I told wenya i wont be blogging a post on e time trial ytd since iso, yr, n wen have ald done a gd job on posting bout it. N pictures, yup its also there le. She rebutted, 'No its different!! It may be the same event but there's definitely different emotions n different things tt captured u e most. N u r just being lazy rite?' Ok maybe i am a bit lazy, but den again, some of our feelings will tend converge during a pt in time rite? U really wanna know how i feel? Ok here's it. I havent got my strokes right, in fact i'm far frm it. N it frustrates me tt its not the way it shd be though i know what's wrong with it--the dipping in; the catch; the length of the stroke. But i do know tt being frustrated only makes things stay the way it is and nothing's gonna change. And i also know tt if i've gotten my stroke right so easily, i probably wont appreciate it so much. It is things that dont come easily n things tt u gotta work damn hard to attain tt makes u appreciate it all a litttle better. It's just, sometimes i just cant help getting mad at myself.

Anyway, ytd vic, iso, serene n i went for evening Mass at Church of the Good Shepherd. Yah i was really trying hard to listen what the priest was trying to preach but he really had diz strong French accent and i couldnt decipher what he was trying to say; only tt he pronounced 'man' as 'mun'. At first i thought i was e only one not able to understand what was gg on, den when he finished preaching i turned to serene n asked, 'u understand what he was saying?' n she replied instantly, 'No' Subesequently i realised all 4 of us really didnt noe wad was gg on, but it wasnt coz we werent listening(or were we?--highly questionable hah) Based on e gospel reading, e take home msg is tt Jesus was seen eating with sinners because it is sinners that need a Saviour. the virtuous who r ald guaranteed to go to Heaven do not need him as much as sinners do. Just as it is for sick people. Only sick people visit the doctor; healthy people have no need for seeing the doctor.

this is vic shampooing herself while waiting for an empty shower cubicle at e National Stadium toilet. Obviously she didnt know i was armed with a camera. I just called 'Vic, vic', den she turned over, n i took e shot.

From left: (living with) lydia, Pinxiu aka PP, yirang, and wenting.

Yes, only a few can pass off well with white caps. Guess who? Yup definitely windy n cendy.(eh we look damn gd lah) Wendy, me, Cheez happened to be wearing something in common ytd, fbt shorts(wendy n i), white cap(needless to say who), red trg jersey(cheez n i)


This was taken on saturday. e toilets at national stadium were closed for a football match so all of us had no choice but to bathe at SDBA. Mona n Serene shampooing in e meantime while waiting for their turn. Wendy, eh gd shot man!