emotion-less

Recently i thought i have become a very unfeeling person. Stoic maybe? I'm not sure but i feel that i'm not as able to express my emotions as well as before. If its sad, ok. If its happy, alright. U noe wad i mean?

Feeling like a not-so-human human. If i'm sad, or watch a sad show, my tear ducts are simple inactivated. It's just, 'oh..okie'

This morning while coming to sch, on bus 96, i just felt so disorganised. It's just this week, everything seems so unplanned for. Ok, maybe it's according to my plan, but i cant seem to be able to accomplish wad i set out to do, unlike the previous weeks when i managed to complete my readings b4 lectures.

Received a concerned sms from a very close fren, and i told him i felt like this week everything's bad. He called and we talked. Thanks, it sure did make me feel a lil better. I know i'm not feeling a lil lack of love, i have love coming frm my friends, my team mates, my family. I just feel like a wood block. So emotionless, or at least, so expressionless. Like i dun care at all. Then suddenly i kinda juz started having this warm tear flowing down my cheeks, yes on bus 96 on my way to sch.

Sniffs. Used the back of my hand to wipe it away.

Picked myself up. It was such a fast recovery.

I cant..not on the bus. not anywhere.

What are strong shoulders for when they cant shoulder heavy loads?