looking back

when i was in sec sch n was very involved in my uniformed group, i would sit and wonder, 'how can anyone join a sport? how is it possible that a person wont get bored of doing the same thing for 4 years?'

i thought my netball and hockey friends were crazy. they too, wondered how was it humanly possible that one wouldn't get bored of doing footdrill/arm drills for 4 years.

funny isnt it? how life takes a turn without u even realising it.

ha, i'm in a sport now. doing the same thing for 2 and a 1/2years.. n counting. strangely enough, i havent gotten bored of it. now i sit back and wonder, how is it humanly possible to do footdrills for 4 years?

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passion

Juniors

yr 3s

yr 2s

yr 1s

angela asked me, 'hmm, juniors nv teach u anything meh?';'y u nv blog abt us one?'; 'our batch very bad is it?'

and i answered, 'gal, the time has not come' i realised i dun really give them as much credit/praise as they ought. well, its earned. juz like trust. not that they do not deserve it; but for me, i guess i'm just very mean. at the same time, i dun give praise easily. some snrs r pretty encouraging, others explicit in showing love. ha i'm not one of them. take it that i'm a cynic who's super mean.

for snrs, they juz left a damn big impact. i wouldnt say all, but e majority did.

did i like being a junior? u bet. i loved being protected, sheltered from all the big and tiny pinpricks. Did i grow up according to plan? I just want to make you proud..

Cuz we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever.
I'm sorry i cant be
Perfect

am i proud of u all?
some things are better left unsaid :]

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opps. hahaha

remember ur g-o-l-d (goal)..

i'd let the pictures do the talking.

i took out the medals in my cupboard aft race. i hardly do tt, most of the time i juz chuck the medals aside. all i can say is, tiz colour seem to 擦身而过 time n time again. b4 race, i told myself, i'm really sick of getting the bronze n silver colour. mp n ys msged me, asking us to please get the ivp gold coz 3 yrs is waaay too loong.

this is 1 gold i'd remember for a very long time..

the post race must have [Nasi Lemak with Curry]
my favourite bengawansolo kuey[Coconut]..thx ys.

ys's email last yr: i hope that you and the rest of the team would not be feeling too disheartened. i can totally understand the kind of disappointment that one goes through after having put in so much hard work and effort and in the end not seeing it pay off. well, it's not for me to judge, but all i can say is not to be discouraged, no team is invincible, ups and downs are all part of the game and it only serves to make us more driven and focused and once in a while remind us why we willingly put ourselves through so much torture and shit. the nus ladies team has been down and out before, but we eventually came back up, and very much stronger indeed...coz when you are down, the only way to go is back up. so, have faith for those who put in the hard work will eventually reap their rewards. and trust me, when it finally pays off, victory will be so much sweeter and very much more meaningful.

it really tastes extremely sweet. meaningful is but an understatement. surely, tiz is not the end. hope we'll stay grounded n realise that our ultimate goal does not end here. there's a thin line btwn confidence n complacency.

i've brought everyone i cld think of down when i rowed. hope u snrs like the belated present.

Wendy taught me tt its ok to make mistakes
Mona taught me how to be a gd captain
Geoks taught me how to be a gd 2nd pair
Meiping taught me how to be a gd pacer
Boon Chin taught me about passion (For sport, for e gals, n to love myself more)
Cheeling taught me how to challenge myself (set 1130min timing for me to clear)
Yunshan taught me how to fight battles against little voices
Serene taught me how to trust God
Zhenyi taught me how to row properly (dun use biceps, twist more, punching arm!)
Vic taught me how to inspire ("Cindy, it’s not ur fault alright?")
Iso taught me how to persevere (all the runs tt we painstakingly endured)
Angeline is still teaching me..ahahah

thanx. i dunno wad else to say.

不要轻易放弃，
否则对不起自己！
Fight!

day 1 came n went. fought hard, but can fight hardER. fought well, but we can fight bettER.

"You are no longer a rower, you are a fightER."

打架 打架 打架.. [now diz is abit lame..tts so me]

random

quite an exciting week but u noe the thing is tt i dun have time to update everyone abt my life.

tuesday's trg was kinda sweeet. like 'awww man' kinda sweeeet. cant really put it down to words but its like a kinder surprise as we open our eyes n b greeted by grilled chicken foldover + a cuppa iced milo. hahah tt was aft enduring a couple of mosquito bites, n the give-away cues such as the trolley wif the macdonald auntie, as well as ALOT of running footsteps during the meditation.

anyhow..it was Sweeet with a capital S. thx manda n zw. oh no i'm not gonna talk abt circle thing. "the older u get, the more luo suo u become..the more emotional u get." how apt. but no la, cindy is like, so stone. thanx anw rang. "Remember ur goal"; "Hard in the water"

aft debrief was over, angeline me rang lijun wenya wenting decided to relive our childhood n play at west coast park. it was damn fun la. can really build team bonding skills with all those high elements course. i was afraid of heights so i came down 1/2 way. let's just call it the 'wobbly legs syndrome'. as my legs tremble, so does the whole thing. n den my palms get a lil sweaty. we all have fears. mine's e fear of instabilty. or height.

wed trg was gd, of course there'll always b tt room for improvement. n we need to fight hard. some drama happened at e doubles room aft we came back frm trg. i happen to b at e wrong place at the wrong time. ha in e end i had to kill a lizard. tts aft spending 20min trying to scare the lizard outta its hiding spot. it was extremely hillarious seeing e 3 of em stepping up onto higher grounds, in order to avoid the baby lizard. laughter is seriously the best medicine.

went to church today wif theresa. it nv fails to amaze me, how the gospel always seem to strike a chord with me. 'u may not like the him/her, u may not agree with him n e way it works, but u have to respect e authority that he is given the office. n it's given by Christ himself.' it's really tough man. but with strength n grace, i'd conquer. slowly but surely.

aft tt 11 of us went to sumohouse at clementi. omg u shd try gg there for affordable, value-for-money japanese food! planned for a carbo-load dinner n decided to try out the food there. i ordered salmon teriyaki set n it cost me $4.90. it was quite a portion n there's free flow of green tea. n smtg tt made me decided to come back again, is tt they served us 2 plates of teriyaki chicken, on the house. sales gimmicks, but hell yea..i fall for this. hehe that's really a gd way to attract customers to come back a 2nd time. quite fun crapping over dinner table. if there's 1 thing we missed out quite abit tiz sem, its bonding sessions like these.

race in 2 days. lanes n race line up are up. the heat is on.
tiz has been ringing in my head. its pretty much wad i'm thinking when i arrive at the race site on sat

约定

就这样三年就过了 我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现 空气中吻你的脸。。

我还记得我们的约定 我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了 我想它会告诉你的
我更爱你了

of course u noe the '你' does not serve a personification purpose here.

7 more days to..

laksa yong tau foo
hai xian tang with blachan chilli
bengawansolo kueh
durian
chrystal jade lamien with the chilli
lotsa booze! tequila shots, sunrise, wad have u..

plenty on my mind. no time to think, wad more time to blog.

excited? yehh u bet.

nervous? a little.

tts about all.

i asked my parents to come down support during the werekends, they said they'd nd to work on that day.

did u hear the shatter sound?

ah well, if they aint coming then they aint coming. i'd take it like a WOman.

maybe i'm in need of some love.. ok dun misunderstand.

3 years in this sport, n i'm not even asking for recognition. i'm juz asking for a little love, some form of support maybe? my last will b next july..will u be there for me?

ok enuf of self pity.

if u r not there, u r not there. i'd just take it like a WOman. maybe my brother will come..with sunny. the best things in life comes unexpected, hence i shan't expect anything. anything at all.