Great Eastern Women 10km Run

i've nv been to a marathon so well planned b4. today was e 1st time. went for the Great Eastern Women's 10km run. walked into padang n den diz guy swarmed to me liming n yingbei. he asked us to pen down our reasons for y we come for tiz run. its part of the event, they'd ask pple to pen down on tiz adidas a4 cardboard, n they'd compile the reasons tt the participants wrote, then pin it on the boards.

i wrote, 'interest'. i couldn't think of any better reason for signing up for runs. well i didnt write 'passion' coz i noe my passion does NOT lie in running. it's in smtg else. tt guy turned out to b a dragonboater from another varsity. his instinct told him to come towards us when he saw yb n lm holding their paddles. maybe he need to 摸清我们的底 to find out where we r from. anw diz dun sound politcally correct but i dun really care. i dun own a blog to say pleasing things, stuff to inflate ur ego when its not true. cheez say tt they r friendlier pple. she said she noes some of ours guys better than them but apparently they juz heck care u. well, there's alot of social skills n etiquette to learn from others la.

oh back to the run. it was sooo well organised, there didnt seem to b any flaw. there were apples oranges n banana provided for all the participants at the end of the race, we get a finisher medal for a 10km run, the race jersey is nice [red adidas], there's sufficient water points, n so much room to run..and most importantly..

its all women! so no sticky n sweaty guys tt brush past u with all exchange of sweat when they rub shoulders with u. eeeeew

kudos to the event organisers, two thumbs up! ok the run was alright, not v bearable. cheez ur pace v fast leh..had stitches n some phlegm tt i couldnt clear throughout the run. there shd be more women-only run. everything also 想得很周到. i heard a participant comment, 'its organised by women, for women. tt's why!' AHM should really learn from this lor! sux lah, the ahm, i'd nv sign up for it again. pay so much n get so little. marginal returns r like wayyyy to low, maybe even negative.

thanx again cheez, yup i'd pay it forward ;] "b4 i get out of breath later, i'm gonna tell u first ah..we r finishing this together" to think tt i was about to say, 'cheeling if u want, u go first, really.' obviously she read my mind.

training. hmm as the days go by, i have lesser things to say. its not a bad thing actually. i believe in sir, n also the gals. to b honest, its not everyone i have that much faith in; some have betrayed it n hence its gone. well, too bad? sir makes me smile, his antics r very cute. of course, it's our turn to make him smile. y am i always so broke? becoz i nv go for the dollar in front. i noe wad he wants ald. its simply for all of us to be the best we can, given the short time. i shd really control my punching arm. its punches too low down at times, blade angle is off as a result.

all of us have flaws. but now's the time to 避短梁长.

went to church juz now, and my back hurt like mad. normally i sit v straight, such that my whole back is against the chair. den tiz part above my butt juz hurt so bad all of a sudden, i had to rub it.

when the snrs tell u, '老了..老了', its true. age really gets u. my back ached like ^%*(#* just now, i had to control the urge to hurl a vulgarity. n u noe, my threshold for pain is quite high so when it hurts it freaking does.

for a brief moment during lunch i experienced the return of the dreaded chest pain. cannot breathe too deeply or exhale fully coz it felt v painful. sometimes it comes, den goes. i dunno y man..its just pretty mysterious. but i'm fine.

ok so i failed my driving test. immediate failure somemore, damn upset. my brother asked me bout it, n i told him. he was like, 'omg we r really siblings. i failed my 1st time coz i mount kerb too!' everything went really smoothly in e circuit, n as i left the crank course, *kaboom* e first thing i mouthed was, 'arghhh' the tester was quite nice to let me carry on n try the road even though i failed ald.

dun ask me abt it man..i needed 4 cuppa milo to get over it. no alcohol to drown my sorrows, so milo does it. i gotten over it ald.

dun have much to say. peace out.

wake up ur idea

so tmr is a public holiday.

n wad other ways to spend a holiday than to warm the chairs in yih study room all day long? how fun is that? i calculated tt i'm currently 8 chapters behind (yah! i'm not kidding), so it'll take me probably 16hrs to clear them all. now is tt cool or is tt cool?

wth..argh

ntg much in my sad pathetic life, no time to blog either. just came back frm a movie, 'a summer of love'. some r21 show tt left us 'huh-ing' when we left the theatre. like seriously, maybe its wayyy too artistic for us to comprehend? funny isnt it, how i say i dun have time to clear my work, yet can still have the decency to proclaim tt i have time to watch movie?

i shd jolly well wake up my bloody idea.

tiz sun is the great eastern women's 10km run. every 1km is like $3.50 lah. n becoz of this run, which is so well organised that i feel extremely pampered, the run starts at 730am! yah, like the runs i previously went for usaually started at like 645 or 7am? as a result, may have to miss trg as a result. damn.

i'm quite peeved over some matters but let's juz leave it like tt. ok maybe i'd juz wait till i really hit the roof. i'm mad abt doing many unnecessary stuff. its no excuse. once is fine. twice is like, ok.. thrice, u r out. my patience wears thin v fast.

actually, its not so much the doing part. 20, 30..or even a 100. if its juz the physical ache, so what!? it doesnt bother me. the most it aches a few days, n den my body just get used to it n becomes stronger.

it's really not so much the doing part tt bothers me. wad really bothers me is a this fragile thing we all noe as trust. tiz is at stake. n u noe wad? 18 days is all we've got. if u haven't earned it from me, then its really too bad. u'd juz b physically present, but not mentally n emotionally there. likewise, i can push, but when i push, its difficult to formulate an image of u in my head. coz u'r not worth it.

almost all are familiar with this phrase, 'the truth hurts' yah it freaking does. i wont even bother to b tactful, coz if u want to listen the nice things, den tune in to Gold 90.5FM or smtg? or find a nice person who'd say pleasing stuff. i'm e last person u'd b looking for since i'm brutally honest n mean..i do not have equal faith in everyone. trust is earned, not given.

i hate excuses. most of them are lame.

wake up ur bl*ody idea

tangibles vs intangibles

hello my frens..

i'm having a serious accumulation of bad debts[i mean it in the sense of work..] yet i still have the decency to come and blog.

somebody kick me.

i shd be studying. like now.

like all the time..

actually i dun really care ald. not tt i've given up hope, but i'm come to b at peace with myself. fine, there's pple smarter than me, the As r up for grabs but not for me. nah, A has nv been smtg in my league anw..

2 things happen tiz wk that made me reaffirmed my stand. to put focus on the intangibles n not the tangibles. friends, relationships fall under the intangibles. wheareas mindlessly pursing the grades,trying to meet deadlines n clear e stack of readings..fall under the tangibles.

i am certain i wont be the big earners when i graduate. those r for the high flyers..those with cap of 4.0 or more, etc. neither would i be driving a huge posh car. they have their own worries, i'd have mine. well, i juz wanna obtain my grades in the a morally right manner. not do anything against my principles. yah its a dog eat dog world out there, i noe i'm gg against the tide [being plain stupid] by choosing not to engage in unscrupulous n underhand methods. i just cant ok?

i may b hard towards treating pple, but i juz find it v hard to go against my principles. wad the world wants of me is completely diferent frm wad God wants of me. the latter is most impt. i'm still learnign to find myself. it's tough.

to geoks sharon angeline weili wee wenya twin ys n ling..thx alot for the concern. i've gotten a new phone ald. memories r for us to create n to treasure eh. thanks also for everyone else's concern. it's really nice to feel that human touch, the love shown. it amazes me tt pl n carmen reads my blog too. anw..hi if u c this?

we ought to take some time to smell the flowers. to stop n think wad really matters. cherish.

it doesnt rain, it freaking pours

hello my friends..i took a personality test n this is wad it said. i feel its a pretty accurate description of me..ok maybe not the part which says i got androgynous charm.

got meh?? i seriously dun think so..

You have a very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone ranger. You are extremely curious and sensual, living a clear headed modern life. At first glance u place yourself on a pedestal, and are difficult to get along. But once others talk to u, they know u are easy going. And when the relationship develops, they realize u are affable. You have an androgynous charm, which makes u popular with all genders. But u don’t like your weak side to be seen. You might look cool on the surface, but beneath it all, you are really passionate. Only people who know ur true self can maintain a long lasting relationship with u.

i misplaced my hp..now its gone. i'm very upset. ok tts a serious understatement. i'm devastated. i'm not so much sore abt losing the hp, more like the sms inside, the photos.

the painstaking attempts i go to preserve wad i call..Memories.

for someone who is always very conscientious n clear-headed, i take this as a v big blow. tis one time of being extremely careless. i called my mum n told her abt it, she asked, 'do u noe wad to do next? how to go abt?' she obviously knew its my 1st time losing stuff. she asked, 'r u sad or not?' i had expected a big scolding, but no. perhaps she too noes its juz not me to lose things. there goes my samsung, which has my sim card.

and the 104 msges.. which dated back to 13 aug 04. 'hey gals, in case u still don't know how to get there, meet 130 at kallang. if not i'd see u @sdba 145, running shoes as always.'

or the one on 1 July 05, tt wrote, 'dun worry, i wont be so easily defeated. let's use today as a motivation to do better tmr. n gal, u really did well today.'

or the one tt said, 'u r my best present ever. nitez'

how abt the one tt said, 'hey twin..i trust u to be the next most capable boss, dun worry, e c ginnas+old birds will be behind u always if u ever nd help.'

the lame sms and also, the sweet sms. all these r irreplaceable. i view them occasionally, esp during times when i'm down.

i hate myself for being so careless. it's gone..memories fade. i dun wanna forget all these.

it doesnt rain, it freaking pours.

but life goes on anyhow. i'd be fine. i'm leaving no room for self-pity. juz abit more time n i'd get over it.

The Salesman and the Apple

I got this from my church bulletin. was close to tears when i read it.

Several years ago, a group of computer salesman from Milwaukee went to a regional sales convention in Chicago. They assured their wives that they would be home in plenty of time for dinner. But with one thing and another, the meeting went overtime and the men had to race to the station, tickets in hand.

As they barge through the terminal, 1 man inadvertently kicked over a table supporting a basket of apples. Without stopping, all the men reached the train and boarded it with a sign of relief. All but one. He paused, got in touch with his feelings, experienced a twinge of uneasiness for the boy whose apple stand had been overturned. He waved goodbye to his companions and returned to the terminal. He was glad he did. The ten yr old boy was blind.

The salesman gathered up the apples and noticed that several of them were bruised. He reached into his wallet, "Here, please take this $10 for the damage we did. I hope it won't spoil your day." As he started to walk away, the bewildered boy called after him, 'Are you Jesus?' He stopped in his tracks. And he wondered.
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Reflections: There is a natural tendency to think that our concerns are always more important than that of our neighbours. When we do that we disregard the value of the other's life. The insensitivity by which we pursue them causes us to b an obstacle and the obsession makes us blind to the other's need. Compassion is not a want but a need. A need that comes from duty. When it is generated by a want it seeks self-glorification or appeasement. When it is a duty generated by love it proclaims the very essence of our being who we were created to be. The need of the other must invoke in us the need to care. It is also amazing how when we do not 'see' the world but only experience the world through peopl's acitons, we perhaps can find Christ. When judged by appearance we tend to write off any possibility of good that can come forth.

pretty unproductive aft trg coz my mind's kinda drained.

ok so here's wad happened on mon. had dinner with my 'bro'..yah ok to those out there who's wondering if there's chance. well, its a big NO..
tiz is my 'bro'

me in tt U2 top which was fitting..all except the arms.

dumplings..i'm so gonna avoid them for at least a mth

普通朋友

firstly, i don't eat 回头草. and secondly, it feels really gd tt we r frens all over again..full circle. can talk abt all the stuff n complain.. Damn sad la, 1st thing he said when he saw me was, ‘cindy, tell me honestly…have u been taking GNC? Wahhh y ur arms so big?’ and i just whacked him.

U see, tt's the difference btwn being friends and being together. anw its a post birthday treat coz he was unable to come for my bdae. was forced to gorge like, 11 different kinds of dumplings? 小龙包，n wad notz. he says i eat too little..hello?? anw its the same, usually he's the one talking n i juz listen lor. life as a student really sux? anw dinner was gd..heh

Den ytd’s trg..we had mooncake festival. ntg much to say abt it, set our goal. its a test of who can paraphrase better than the other? coz in the end the words are very much the same as the previous one. ok so we took some pictures. here it is..

mooncakes

our goal

jump shot take #1

jump shot take #2

C ginnas

team pic for the day

today's trg. just felt like we needed constant reminder to pull fast, coz i felt like the stroke rate was slow, but it was kinda draggy. the view frm the back is quite nice.

i'm kinda critical..but at least i dun deny it. u nd to prove it to me BIG TIME b4 u can gain my trust. for some it'll take 1 mth, others a year, and sadly for a small number..never. i give very little room for benefit of doubt. n i detest people who say 1 thing n do another. tt's y i refrain frm speaking most of the times, so as not to say smtg tt i may very well not be able to do. n i wont make a promise unless i can fulfil it. if u cant do it, den dun say it. it irks me when some pple say 1 thing n do the other. 'cognitive dissonance'

and i hate pple who give excuses.

ok maybe i'm in a bad mood.

maybe i'm not in a bad mood.

maybe it's a hangoverr?

where the cold wind blow

a very very cold trg day.

e whole time i'm thinking y somebody nv ask..下雨会生什么病?

n tiz was ringing in my head as we rowed..

in the early morning row
with a paddle in my hand
with an aching in my heart
and my shirt is full of sand

i'm a long long way from home
and i miss my lover so
in the early morning row
where the cold wind blow

where the cold wind blow x4

had to wear my bro's oakley's shades today to prevent my eye frm further infection. looked like a big-time poseur la. i dun like wearing shades coz i cant see no sh*t..n it was worse coz e sky was cloudy n it was raining. y would anyone in the right frame of mind wear shades on a rainy day? well..me. unforseen circumstances.

nonetheless, the shades served its function of preventing water tt splattered from everywhere. had to endure comments like, 'cindy u look v man..' or 'cindy u look like cyclops' *diaoz*

bc came down today. read rang's blog, well tt's been on my mind as well. seeing other teams training very hard @sdba n really gearing up for regatta. sometimes i wish we weren't so happy. maybe i'm sadio-masochistic..i wont deny it if u said i was. i juz wish we werent so happy in the sense tt we dun take things so lightly, n laugh it off. some stuff r not so laughable. nt implying tt we must be oh-so-serious, of course there's a nd for some fun during trg. but at least the focus nds to be there. sadly, some still lack the focus..n its not juz e young ones.

personally, i feel tt tiz regatta is gonna b a 'full circle' kinda thing? i'm juz thinking back bout how his heart hurt really bad when he saw us crying last yr. tts y he wanted to do something . the rest of the story, like they say, is history. the same thing applies in reality as it is for gym weights. 'wad goes up must stay up, else increase'

feel a bit pek chek on e boat at times. today i asked something's tt has been on my mind for a very long time[perhaps tt person suay, i bad mood den she kena arrowed], 'xx u really got ntg to say ah!?' she replied, 'er..no' n i juz looked away in disappointment. i'm just fast-forwarding to a situation in future. wad will happen when we r really gone. is it only then tt u'd have smtg to say/pinpoint? could it be juz me having smtg to say during sets, or??

on the brighter side, here's a compilation of e dreaded wendy syndrome. ie mispronunciation moments. it's contagious!

take care = 10k/ tack kay --manda
wad did u say = wad did u shay--me
short hair girl = short hair gare --wendy
blood angle=blade angle --zw

n many more to come.

ps:ky, for u. as requested.